Monday, November 19, 2007

11-19-07

Does God really look at the heart but the things we do? I fell into a deep depth dark hole, nothing else but me, I can't feel my surroundings but my breath and my brain. Will you still watch over me? My God, oh my God. Years and years passed by me, still I am here with a dark cloud covered over me. Slowly and deeply sucking my soul out. How can I praise you and live with you when I can't feel the hope that I always had in you? Emptiness is filled with emptiness. Tears in my eyes are like the surprises on birthday. What is your will and what is mine? There is no joy that I find in the things I do, because I find no purposes in them. How long.......
Where is the helper in my dreams, I only see illusions that drags me down into the darkness in the untruthful world. How weak I feel, how little I feel, can you understand?
When I try to look into the world, I feel so small, so tiny, so micro. How important am I? Does it really matter to You if I appears in this falsity world? Or is just too real. I want to give it.
How many tests would there still be? Can I have the courage and the power to face them? When will people start to accept, when will there be love? You told me you love me.

11 comments:

Alice in Wonderland said...

"For this God is our God forever and ever; He will be our guide even to the end." (Psalms48:14)

"Trust in Him at all times, O people; pour out your hearts to Him; for God is our refuge." (Psalms62:8)

"Be still and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations. I will be exalted in the earth." (Psalms46:10)

Dig into God's Word George, for God's words are full of truth and life. He loves you so much, don't give up!

beqaw said...

thank you alice!!!!!!!

the Invaders said...

good to ask these questions...

Wilderness is an invitation to encounter God once again! I am still walking in it; getting stronger and stronger as the days go by (at least I believe so)!

You heard of my struggles, and again I say, God is faithful to the end.

Anonymous said...

Alice did what I was about to do after reading this blog...


Word of the Lord is our weapon. We will only be alive when we "choose" to let His Word consumer us!!!


Go, George Go!

:-)

jasypants said...

Happy Thanksgiving, George. :)

the Invaders said...

happy thanksgiving, my man. you my man forever, yo..love your smile. peace, dude.

+J Lin's Journey to Heaven+ said...

Hi HunanBigBoss!!! ready to serve our Lord with passion and worship Him highly??? Amen!!! let's bang bang!!

Sarah Wang said...

I love how my sister can always find the perfect verses to encourage people.

Fei Fei, sometimes we can't feel God, but He is still there, and He will always be there. Keep seeking after Him, for whoever seeks His kingdom shall find, knocks and the doors be open. Add oil! We're all here with you! 挺你到底肥肥!! ^^

-sala<3

jasypants said...

Remember what Jack said about God being there with you whereever you go.

johnny said...

Rock on George.
Love you man.
Keep the blogging going!

+J Lin's Journey to Heaven+ said...

左治!!不要讓你對神的見證下沈了!!加油!!