Life goes on? Life goes on.

Arrested for DUI last night. Guess I had too much to drink, pretty sure God wanted me to wake up with a different way he used to use. Spent my night in jail for the first time in life, had the longest night

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Noticed both my legs were sore. Never felt the brain so stoned in my whole entire life. Seriously, I can look at one thing for hours and not feel bored to it. Sometimes meeting new things is just too fun, which for I could think of right now, everything new is fun to me. Discovered the truth that I could actually sleep early and wake up on time. What is Parsifal really searching after his life? What could really heal the Fisher King's wound? Sometimes a really simple question could just done it. TKO!!! Such dreams I dream, I could just find another world in it.
Reality Vs. Dreams. Whoa! I can't even remember it. Ever since I was pissed drunk and I kept on telling myself I'm dreaming. Caressing by the wind in the afternoon is just like falling into my fair maiden's embrace, so comforting and quite. More to come, more to go.

OH MY LORD..........

Such unpleasant message from my manager. I forgot to type the receipt of two $100 prepaid cards, and he can't find the two hundred dollars, and I need to pay the two hundred dollars off...........OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!!!! SUCH A CALL THAT PISSES ME OFF!!!!!!!! MAKES ME WANNA QUIT MY STUPID JOB NOW!!!!

MONEY!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE U!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GOSH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I wanna kick and scream!!!!!!!!!!!!

25*$8=$200 tax not included!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

1 week=30 hrs!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I dont wanna work for a week for free!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


HELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELPHELP!

SLEEPLESS

SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS,
SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS...........

I MADE THAT WORD UP. CUZ I CANT SLEEP= =........

THROAT IS HURTING LIKE A MOTHER'S COOKIE.
WHAT?!

NICE JOKE!
FEELING MYSELF ONCE AGAIN~ (FEELING IN ADJECTIVE NOT A VERB.)

GOD YOU ARE WAY COOLER THAN I EXPECTED, COOLEST GOD IN THE WHOLE UNIVERSE. GOSH, CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE TO DESCRIBE THE COOLNESS OF GOD. (ANOTHER MADE UP WORD)

SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE A VERY EXPRESSIVE GUY, I LOVE THE WAY I AM, BECAUSE GOD ACCEPTED ME AS WHO I AM, AND I LOVE THAT!

FEELING GOOD ABOUT MYSELF IS SUCH A NICE THING.

EVEN THOUGH I CAN'T FALL ASLEEP, BUT I STILL LOVE THE FEELING OF HAVIN THE ACTUAL CONNECTION WITH HIM. THANK YOU, AND I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOUR WORDS, I LOVE YOUR LOVE, I LOVE YOUR SMILE, I LOVE YOUR FORGIVENESS, I LOVE YOUR WAY OF CARESSING ME, I LOVE YOU FOR ACCEPTING ME AS WHO I AM, I LOVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU'VE DONE FOR MY SHAMES, I LOVE YOU FOR GIVING ME THE STRENTH, I LOVE YOU WHEN I'M POOR AND NEEDY, I LOVE YOU FOR GIVING ME LIFE LESSONS, I LOVE YOU FOR WATCHING OVER ME, I LOVE YOU FOR BEING MY FORTRESS WHENEVER I NEEDED A PLACE TO HIDE, I LOVE YOU FOR LEADING ME TO WHERE I AM TODAY, I LOVE YOU FOR CLEARING MY HEART AND EYES, I LOVE YOU FOR KISSING ME ON THE MOUTH, I LOVE YOU FOR LOOKING INTO MY EYES, I LOVE YOU FOR THE PASSION YOU GAVE ME, I LOVE YOU FOR MY BROKEN HEART. BECAUSE THROUGH YOU, I ONCE AGAIN FIND MYSELF.

THANK YOU

生病+失眠=痛苦

好久沒病了。
發現自己的白頭發多了好多，也不知道平時到底在想什麽。漸漸的再次想起從前。縂覺得自己很脆弱，很難成爲一個可以把你抱在懷裏而又無時無刻給你安全感的人。空空的。
一切就好像發生在沒多久以前，是那麽的清晰。可是在清晰的後面又有一層朦朧而醜陋的布將兩者分開。當我看到清晰時，我仿佛又再一次的被深深的滿足著。可是不知道爲什麽，那一層布縂讓我不舒服，不快樂，不想再去想她。一切變得不美滿，不幸福，不好看。
如何去面對明天總是在我腦海裏打轉。書沒讀好，錢也沒存，每天還是帶著我那些重重的朋友們走著，總是在想什麽時候能讓自己健康的活著。
終于發現，沒有任何的東西可以麻痹自己，留下的永遠是空的，虛的跟難抉擇的。到底過去的生活給了我什麽？功課？教訓？還是萬無一失而又讓我覺得廢棄了的虛幻的影像？
完美的定義到底是什麽？
想了又想，想了又想，想了又想，想了又想，想了又想，想了又想，想了又想，想到了麽？
想再一次的放下。想再一次的拿起來。想再一次的愛下去。
過去是用彌補來定義的麽？
還是過去根本不存在...................

Can't get out of the circle.

I almost let myself get into blood. So shaking, with only something that can't be bigger than a mouse's poop. Did not enjoy it at all, because of my grown up mind. Kinda hated it, hopefully things like that would never happen again.

happy

Happy funeral?
看完6楼后座2之后的感触。
好感动。都哭出来了。有时觉得真得很满足。虽然还是有顾虑，可是心里还是觉得很满足。
成功/失败？
成功的人所得到的是有限的，失败的人所失去的也是有限的。
开心/伤心？
一分一秒的感觉，到底是不是那么的重要呢？
笑/哭？
核桃露/毒药。This is for you。
他和她的房间，在下楼拐角的第一间。