SLEEPLESS

SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS,
SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS, SLEEPLESS...........

I MADE THAT WORD UP. CUZ I CANT SLEEP= =........

THROAT IS HURTING LIKE A MOTHER'S COOKIE.
WHAT?!

NICE JOKE!
FEELING MYSELF ONCE AGAIN~ (FEELING IN ADJECTIVE NOT A VERB.)

GOD YOU ARE WAY COOLER THAN I EXPECTED, COOLEST GOD IN THE WHOLE UNIVERSE. GOSH, CAN'T THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE TO DESCRIBE THE COOLNESS OF GOD. (ANOTHER MADE UP WORD)

SOMETIMES I FEEL LIKE A VERY EXPRESSIVE GUY, I LOVE THE WAY I AM, BECAUSE GOD ACCEPTED ME AS WHO I AM, AND I LOVE THAT!

FEELING GOOD ABOUT MYSELF IS SUCH A NICE THING.

EVEN THOUGH I CAN'T FALL ASLEEP, BUT I STILL LOVE THE FEELING OF HAVIN THE ACTUAL CONNECTION WITH HIM. THANK YOU, AND I LOVE YOU, I LOVE YOUR WORDS, I LOVE YOUR LOVE, I LOVE YOUR SMILE, I LOVE YOUR FORGIVENESS, I LOVE YOUR WAY OF CARESSING ME, I LOVE YOU FOR ACCEPTING ME AS WHO I AM, I LOVE YOU FOR WHAT YOU'VE DONE FOR MY SHAMES, I LOVE YOU FOR GIVING ME THE STRENTH, I LOVE YOU WHEN I'M POOR AND NEEDY, I LOVE YOU FOR GIVING ME LIFE LESSONS, I LOVE YOU FOR WATCHING OVER ME, I LOVE YOU FOR BEING MY FORTRESS WHENEVER I NEEDED A PLACE TO HIDE, I LOVE YOU FOR LEADING ME TO WHERE I AM TODAY, I LOVE YOU FOR CLEARING MY HEART AND EYES, I LOVE YOU FOR KISSING ME ON THE MOUTH, I LOVE YOU FOR LOOKING INTO MY EYES, I LOVE YOU FOR THE PASSION YOU GAVE ME, I LOVE YOU FOR MY BROKEN HEART. BECAUSE THROUGH YOU, I ONCE AGAIN FIND MYSELF.

THANK YOU

生病+失眠=痛苦

好久沒病了。
發現自己的白頭發多了好多，也不知道平時到底在想什麽。漸漸的再次想起從前。縂覺得自己很脆弱，很難成爲一個可以把你抱在懷裏而又無時無刻給你安全感的人。空空的。
一切就好像發生在沒多久以前，是那麽的清晰。可是在清晰的後面又有一層朦朧而醜陋的布將兩者分開。當我看到清晰時，我仿佛又再一次的被深深的滿足著。可是不知道爲什麽，那一層布縂讓我不舒服，不快樂，不想再去想她。一切變得不美滿，不幸福，不好看。
如何去面對明天總是在我腦海裏打轉。書沒讀好，錢也沒存，每天還是帶著我那些重重的朋友們走著，總是在想什麽時候能讓自己健康的活著。
終于發現，沒有任何的東西可以麻痹自己，留下的永遠是空的，虛的跟難抉擇的。到底過去的生活給了我什麽？功課？教訓？還是萬無一失而又讓我覺得廢棄了的虛幻的影像？
完美的定義到底是什麽？
想了又想，想了又想，想了又想，想了又想，想了又想，想了又想，想了又想，想到了麽？
想再一次的放下。想再一次的拿起來。想再一次的愛下去。
過去是用彌補來定義的麽？
還是過去根本不存在...................