Sick......

Finally I'm sick, went to sleep around 10 o'clock, feeling my head so HEAVY. I kept dreaming of my childhood friends, but don't know why J was in it = =...... I had a dream that my dog was running around and he finally knows that when I call his name he should run back to me. Childhood friends, there were even illusions, when I saw one of my friend was driving on the running track, I thought she was someone else, but she turned out to be my childhood classmate, exactly the same, nothing changed, told me that I got so fat= =........Then it was class time, we all dressed up in our old school uniform, we were so happy, and then I saw there were bunch of other people from other school when they were little, and they were in different school uniform. The class was hard, I can't understand one single word the teacher said, and I felt the urge in my heart, kinda scary, like when I was little and I don't get the teacher's words I would feel really really urge. I went sit with J, and J was using the different version of the book than me, so he was looking at my book, he was so serious= =..... Class was in process, I dreamed that I was drinking water, non-stop, then I realize that I AM THIRSTY LIKE CRAZY, so I got up, felt my head was sooooooooooooo heavy, my whole body hurts, my throat was dry and painful, I can't breath at all through my nose, and I'm COLD......... BUT There's no water left in the pot, so I made some. I miss my mom.

Most Embarrasing Moment

What's your most embarrassing moment?
For me, is when I did something that I don't even know I did it. Which is..............snoring in the class room.
I've been snoring LOUD ever since I was little, I guess is because of overweight. Just a few minutes ago, I snored again in my CIS class, which is a HUGE classroom with around 100 students and when I realized I fell asleep, is already too late, and people are looking at me with a familiar expression. They were searching for the person who just snored. Hah....funni.....
Really embarrassed myself by this unconscious move. Sometimes I wonder when this snoring problem would stop, so I could actually sleep well in class when I feel sleepy.

Huge

Huge encouragement from friend, nothing can depress me, I feel.
Curve in my heart is time to get straight, nothing can bend it anymore. How much better can tomorrow be? I think the last payment should be the end of it all.
Room is clean again, books are not as heavy, heart is light as feather, prayers are being delivered, poison disappeared, cool.

3,4,5,6,7,8,9,0.......

Slowly.........
A pair of iron wings sent me to this place, the darkness of the sky is almost covering with the light of the sun. But I just can't let go of the airport, so I fiddled around with the tempo of adagio. Found out it is a crowded airport, like the wind.
Lots of screens sparkled through my eyes, with tears that never wanted to fall down because of the remaining bits of faith. It happened in the middle of Heaven and Hell. The air plane was like me, went away with a tempo of adagio in front of my eyes, but I still wonder if there is you that I await for, one and only you.
I don't even remember the words and sentences you said. Continue? Or end? But when separation came, only tears came to my mind and I only craved for more tears. Was it too blurry? Or do I wonder if you still care. When the wait lasted too long, nobody wanted to continue, neither end. Then I walked out to my longest journey when it came with the slowest steps.
Will a cup of hot coffee block my tears? Who is he, who is he that you are caressing? Tears with the adagio tempo..............
I'm not too sad, I just thought............